friendship

friends.

while i'm currently missing some clique from somewhere else, i can't help but think about this situation which i'm kinda stuck right now.

it used to be a two girl two girl thing. but now, all 3 have gathered. and whenever we 3 hang out, i'll feel left out at times. you 2 will hold hands and stuff and leave me alone. I don't know if it's me or what, but i just hate how i feel everytime when you all leave me aside. perhaps, it's really me.

and when i just stray away from you all, daydreaming in my own world and walking infront or behind you 2, you'll say i'm not happy. how am i supposed to be happy when i feel left out? but all i did was just smile and say 'no, im just tired' and than continue.

you freaking know how i hate to be left aside. in such situation, you might as well just don't bother calling me out. let me stay at home or do my own things instead of wondering does the problem lies with me or you. even if it's a mere 1 or 2 minutes of making me feel this way, i rather you let me rot at home. really. cos i can't and i don't take such stuffs. but seeing that you're my good friend, i've let it go. but you don't get my hint at all.

perhaps, it's all me. me and me. just lynette. maybe im too sensitive or what. or maybe i was just finding fault with people. or maybe i was just pmsing at that point of time and didn't see eye to eye to what you were doing. i think the problem lies with me. that's why i didn't ask you anything about it. because i felt that it's me and it could be solved as the time goes by.

i feel better now. but still, i feel the hurt

i think it's me la. but no matter how. i love you 2 still. 1's my wife and another.. i think scandal. haha.

it's at such time that i really want to cry out loud on someone's shoulder. haha. well. let's not ask for tt much.

i miss my mama. boohoo.

junjie thinks im from crescent. lol